My Pursuit of Happiness

      Bipolar Disorder is a serious illness and it is crucial for that person to stick to a schedule to find stability in his or her life.  I am sharing with you, today, my morning routine that I use to keep me grounded.       1) The night before, set an alarm for nine to ten hours so you can be fully rested to take on the day.  I set my alarm for 10pm to 8am to allow my medication to finish doing its job and is flushed from my system.       2) Don’t look at your phone until you have finished your morning routine.  This task is tricky for I am still working on it.  But this is an important to task.  I don’t know but people become obsessed over the news they find on social media and status they either get or don’t get.  This obsession is proven to hinder the mental health.  So, it is important to practice this task of less screen time to help improve the quality of life.       3) Before picking...

 Dear Diary, I write this today expressing fear of the loss of my dad.  He’s in the hospital and right now is in the operating room where they will perform a procedure to prepare him for an even bigger and more risky surgery with will take place tomorrow.  I was on the phone with him, before coming up to do this post, about what to expect if something happens.  I’m hoping and praying that nothing happens.  That he’ll come home all calm and sound for the rest of his days spent with his loved ones.  But I have to come to realize that living might not be the plan.  God might say it’s time come home and see my mom.  I have a picture of my mom sitting on the end table in the living room.  The recliner is right across from it.  And a couple times I look over at the picture thinking she moved or said something.  As God says, the end is nigh.  I have to prepare for this monumental end of an adventure.  My dad is tired…more exhaust...

      So, as you could see by the title of this post is I deleted all of my social media.  The reason for this was the negativity and thinking no one wanted me.  But it was basically a drug taking took hold of my emotions and thought process.  The really tough part of stepping away were the “withdrawals”.  How many people are following me now?  Did anyone unfriend me?  Who are my friends?  Who can I count on during turbulent times?  Nobody wants me…. Pretty depressing, huh?  Allowing myself to think like that was sick.        But what I did was give myself the attention I truly needed.  I did this in the form of meditation…twice a day.  It helped me to come into contact with what was bothering me and why.  It taught me to focus on my inner self, my breath.  I did this for 41 days and going.  I have made it a practice to give me this moment to breathe.       Right now I...